Monday, February 15, 2010

Is blood quantum going to be our downfall?

My kids used to laugh at me when they were teenagers because I used to tell them to date other natives of their tribe.  They would try to accuse me of being racist, a hater of love, and other assorted names I will spare you of knowing.  Actually, I am not a hater of love. I love love in fact, and the way it makes you feel when it first happens is so exciting and fresh and you are always shivering with anticipation when the object of your affection is near.  Then there is the old love that you feel years later.  The comfortable and safe love of knowing you will never be alone and be safe and protected from all abuse and hurt.  But I digress. 
     The reason I felt that way about sticking to your own kind is for the pure and simple fact that if we don't maintain our native blood in some tribal nations, we will lose funding from the government and a host of other rights we as native people gained with some of our tribal treaties with the government.  Some of them being hunting and fishing rights and other sovereign issues I will not go into just yet.  How could this happen you ask? Well, say my son falls in love with a non native of our tribe and he has 1/4 blood and to be on our tribes rolls you must have that number.  Then they have children and those children do not make the rolls because the beautiful young lady doesn't have any blood to offer and next thing you know their children have no legacy but decendancy passed down to them.  So the cycle goes on and on. Now I am not clear on the math and all, but I do know that with each new relationship and baby in mixed marriages/relationships there is a definite drop in blood quantum.  I am against this as I feel it was a tool from the government to eliminate and end our treaties with the government once and for all. 
     I wish I didn't have to think this way. I would prefer to let things go naturally in a relationship rather than be so technical and unromantic regarding the courtship process.  I was just thinking about how the government got over on us once again. What solutions are out there to this situation? should tribes lower their blood quantum levels so that decendants can be enrolled or should the enrollment process be abandoned altogether? And what will the consequences to that be? Let me know what you think!

Friday, February 12, 2010

How do you think we should deal with a pedophile?

I don't even know if the term pedophile is correct for the type of monster I am thinking of. Anyway, like most crusaders of this nature, I have my reasons for being so rabid when it comes to this type. Of course I was molested as a child by some random guy my parents called friend back in the 60's. He didn't have a place to sleep so they put him in our room in our (my sisters) bed and we had to sleep on the floor. Well before I knew what was going on there was this old drunken man trying to put his fingers between my little 8 year old legs. I was so horrified I couldn't even move. I felt sick with shame and fear so I moved and he jumped up into his bed and I jumped up and ran to the bathroom where I laid in the tub all night long. This continued for many years until I was about twelve and he finally stopped coming to our home. This ruined me for many years well into my adulthood. Weight gain, sexual promiscuity, fear of abandonment, pulling my hair(trichtillomania) and other assorted compulsions and phobias. I am darn lucky I didn't end up with a split personality! And this was just me. I shudder to think what my little sisters endured while I abandoned them by hiding in the bathroom. One sister remembers nothing and the others life was more or less as messed up as mine. I wish I wouldn't have been so afraid of my parents reactions then, I might have saved us all. Today I notice that everything I think and every action I take, all has a direct link to what I had been subjected to as a little girl.
Now I ask you once again...How do you think we should deal with a pedophile? I used to think they should be killed immediately. But the older I get, the more creative I have become. Today I think I would like to start with the removal of their hands. And not just by anyone. I think the family ought to be allowed to dole out this punishment. Ultimately I would like to see that all convicted pedophiles/molesters be given their sentence by the family they have destroyed. I wouldn't matter what it was, but they should have the ultimate say. What do you think?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

IHS Witch Doctors

My husband hasn't been to the dentist in over twenty years. Why? because he is afraid of them. He claims they are witch doctors who only lean over you and shake their bones at you and speak some sort of gibberish. I used to laugh at that joke because I knew he was always afraid of dentists anyway, but then again, aren't we all? Now I know different. There is a certain kind of dentist out there and they are working for the IHS or Indian Health Services. If you speak native, then you know what and who I am talking about. The Indian Health Service. It seems that when certain proffesionals finish their education, they can work off their debt by working for impoverished tribal entities. So many are sent our(native people) way, and some and I just say "some" aren't exactly the brightest bulbs in the box if you know what I mean. Well some are lacking in common sense, judgement, and skills that are needed when working on a patient. So back to my story.... Today I went to the local doctor/dentist and viola! I had to have an extraction. Naturally something went wrong. Half of the tooth came out, and the other half needed my dentist to sit in my lap and use a great many tools, (bone necklace) and finally after much effort the awful tooth was extracted! This same Dentist one time nicked my sinus cavity and stripped the screw he had drilled into my jaw bone, while cracking my jaw, and literally ran to the pharmacy to fetch me some pain relief! I know, I know, you ask why? why did you ever go back to him?! because dear reader I am a member of the tribe that this poor inept soul was sent to. Making me a victim of poverty and mercy of our tribal governments poor decisions. I must add that I am also a college educated woman and owner of her own business, but unfortunately not succesful enough to have insurance. Do you think this is a good reason for me to be the witch doctors victim? Please tell me some of your dental horror stories, I want to know if my little neck of the woods is the only place with these witch doctors.